Sweet Angst

Saturday, March 31, 2007

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

Introducing... *drum rolls* ... The Master of All Pick-up Lines

Mark [ Does it from behind ] says:
Something tells me you're sweet. Can I have a sample?

Mark [ Does it from behind ] says:
Your lips look so lonely.... Would they like to meet mine?

Mark [ Does it from behind ] says:
Can I take your picture? Because I want Santa to know exactly what I want for Christmas.

Mark [ Does it from behind ] says:
You be the Dairy Queen and I'll be your Burger King: You treat me right, and I'll do it your way

Mark [ Does it from behind ] says:
I like that one

Mark [ Does it from behind ] says:
When I look into your eyes, it is like a gateway into the world of which I want to be a part.

Mark [ Does it from behind ] says:
I'm a Love Pirate, and I'm here for your booty! ARRRGGGHHH!!!

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

If you havent heard, i've got a green nail. It's from the fake nails that I had done from Taipei. Apparently, moisture wedges itself in between the nail bed and fake nail, which results in green discolouration. CRAP. It's like my nail is mouldy. When I forced the remaining bastard fake nails out of my fingers, it was sheer pain and determination.

After I ripped the fake nail out of my left thumbnail, I had the rudest shock of my life. I was wondering in horror why my nail was decomposing. I thought I was just going to die and waste my life away.

Well at least, I've reclaimed my fingers back.

I wasnt too pleased with my fake nails to be honest. It wasnt the right colour, wasnt that pretty. It was a fucking disaster. Maybe I am too much of a perfectionist, but I am afterall paying $60+ sing dollars for the nails. To understand the whole situation, pics are definitely helpful.







That's me choosing my design...









That's me looking all excited..










This is me looking pissed, tired and uninterested. Look at the ugly orange on the nails, it's a total opposite of what i had wanted. :(





My colleague Miss Riddler says I remind her of Herman Munster. How tragic.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Monday blues occur every week. Every Monday in fact.

8th Jan 07, Monday was a shocking one. It's the second work week of the year. Major discovery in the making. Managers do not like coloured people nor smokers. Now, that's a thought. Normally, I would have one thousand and one things to say. But fuck it. Because I've had it.

Moving on, I made a major confession. Wasn't exactly what I wanted to say, but I said it. Now I feel so stupid. When I have already seen for myself, taken so many hints, here I am going to get hurt. WT is going to come back to me, and tell me that: "Hey ran.. better give up the idea. He likes her, and they really hit it off at J's party." $#$#*$&#*^$... fuck men.

Just watched À la folie... pas du tout, and I learnt something new.

Erotomania is a rare disorder in which a person holds a delusional belief that another person, usually of a higher social status, is in love with them. (Taken from Wikipedia)

Not yet quite the erotomaniac to believe in people that I love, does love me back. However, I hate it when I always like someone of a higher social status. I should stop doing that. But how is one to decide what happens when attraction sinks in, and chemistry explodes like a bomb and forces attraction to permeate through all organs of the body?

Please, make me sane. Protect me from all harmful sickness including this insane disease. I need to believe love is dead.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

So it's Friday night. Ive decided to stay home and recuperate since i have plans for the weekend. I did get invitations to go out clubbing, but politely refused all of them. Desperately need to rest my ulcers and hope they heal asap.

Realised how friendless and lonely i am. It's kinda scary when such realisations kick in. On another note, received invites for The Blood Diamond next week. Asked him to watch with me. URGHHH it's always me asking him out. How annoying is that. Makes me seem a little desperate in my opinion. WHO CARES... i dont care anymore. Jolly well knowing that he doesnt seem to fancy me one bit. So be it. Im passed this stage where i dont care anymore. He doesnt call me, nor sms me. Certainly doesnt ask me out, WHY?! Reason is simple: He doesnt fancy me. Ah well... one must take such things in their stride, dont u reckon?

Had the chance to watch the first episode of Supernatural. AWESOME show.. goin back to the office n grab a copy of it. hehehe ;p I'd rather watch all the eps in one shot than finish it painfully n slowly free-to-air style.

Received quite a few presents from my colleagues today. Im so embarassed. My presents were all so small as compared to theirs. SIGH... i need to freaking manage my life.. i NEEEEDDDD a new job. Someone HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

My ulcers are killing me. So is my screwy keyboard. Must be the bad karma of alchohol + sticks from the weekend. Yes I am destroying my body. Inside of my mind/body/soul is as raw, and filthy and disgusting as my lesions of ulcer torturing me every minute and second. I feel so much pain that it numbs me. It's kinda like how teenage angst translates into slitting wrists or slitting any part of the body.

It's been raining the whole freaking day. RAIN RAIN RAIN. I hope it would rain the whole of tomorrow as well. Wash all the filth and dirt from us. Wash all the bad karma away.

Xmas shopping is important. Have to do it soon !!! Been procrastinating so much. :( I once remembered the great words of a WoW PVP player ... :

"Procrastination is like masturbation. Either way, you're f*cking yourself."

How true that is... I gotta stop procrastinating and get myself together. On a better note, im goin to be on MC on tues, and rest at home.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Wasnt sure how my weekend was going to turn out. But here it is.

Fri nite: Met up with Cheryl Lim for dinner at maxwell market, then later went to WT's place to help him finish up his alcohol. Hrmmm... Miss Lim got hysterical, must be all the alcohol. After which, i went to zouk to meet up with Wilson & gang. Trying my best to meet up with Wilson as much as possible, as he's goin to be in sg for a short before he goes back to Melbourne. OH MY ... howwww i miss those days.. then had supper at simpang bedok

Sat nite: woke up really late. Godsis called me n asked if i wanted to have dinner at Daniel's cuz there arent any seats for us on tuesday. Nice. So i woke up, showered, made up, n godsis came to pick me up. Think im too used to ppl picking me up. This is a horrible habit. WHENNNnnn oh whennnnn will i have my own vehicle. Or rather, wheeeennnnn will i afford my vehicle. :( Dinner was excellent at Daniel's.. cept my ulcers were so humungously huge that i couldnt eat properly. Later we went to Fashion Bar at Clarke Quay to check it out. Disappointing. Absolutely disappointing. Went to Taboo later, disappointing as well. Weren't as welcomed we thought it would be. Ppl were so hostile. I mean... I have been to a gay club before (Whynot at Tanjong Pagar).. n it was heaps of fun. But ppl at Taboo are just so hostile. Quite upset abt it. While i was waiting for the unisex toilet, nt sure whether the "room" i was waiting for is a toilet, i asked this guy at the sink outside. He said YES it is a toilet. Then he started talking to me. He told me really nicely that this is a gay club, and the guys inside are all gays. And im like.. "hrmm ok.." then he suggested that i would have better chances at a straight club elsewhere and that no guys here would look at me. im like "WTF?" The freaking reason why im at a gay club is so that i wouldnt get undesirable attention. I dont wan guys to be ogling or leering at my twins n trying to get fresh with me. Being at a gay club would make me feel safe, or so i thought. I was so frightened and scared throughout my whole time there. I guess, it just felt so strange smelling semen on the stairways up to the second lvl. The whole assrape scene that Monica Bellucci suffered in Irreversible just came to my mind. BOOOOOOOOO... The night ended up with me, Godsis n XH jiejie having drinks at WT's place. HAHAA WT's place is turning into such a Ladies Night place.