Sweet Angst

Saturday, December 23, 2006

So it's Friday night. Ive decided to stay home and recuperate since i have plans for the weekend. I did get invitations to go out clubbing, but politely refused all of them. Desperately need to rest my ulcers and hope they heal asap.

Realised how friendless and lonely i am. It's kinda scary when such realisations kick in. On another note, received invites for The Blood Diamond next week. Asked him to watch with me. URGHHH it's always me asking him out. How annoying is that. Makes me seem a little desperate in my opinion. WHO CARES... i dont care anymore. Jolly well knowing that he doesnt seem to fancy me one bit. So be it. Im passed this stage where i dont care anymore. He doesnt call me, nor sms me. Certainly doesnt ask me out, WHY?! Reason is simple: He doesnt fancy me. Ah well... one must take such things in their stride, dont u reckon?

Had the chance to watch the first episode of Supernatural. AWESOME show.. goin back to the office n grab a copy of it. hehehe ;p I'd rather watch all the eps in one shot than finish it painfully n slowly free-to-air style.

Received quite a few presents from my colleagues today. Im so embarassed. My presents were all so small as compared to theirs. SIGH... i need to freaking manage my life.. i NEEEEDDDD a new job. Someone HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

My ulcers are killing me. So is my screwy keyboard. Must be the bad karma of alchohol + sticks from the weekend. Yes I am destroying my body. Inside of my mind/body/soul is as raw, and filthy and disgusting as my lesions of ulcer torturing me every minute and second. I feel so much pain that it numbs me. It's kinda like how teenage angst translates into slitting wrists or slitting any part of the body.

It's been raining the whole freaking day. RAIN RAIN RAIN. I hope it would rain the whole of tomorrow as well. Wash all the filth and dirt from us. Wash all the bad karma away.

Xmas shopping is important. Have to do it soon !!! Been procrastinating so much. :( I once remembered the great words of a WoW PVP player ... :

"Procrastination is like masturbation. Either way, you're f*cking yourself."

How true that is... I gotta stop procrastinating and get myself together. On a better note, im goin to be on MC on tues, and rest at home.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Wasnt sure how my weekend was going to turn out. But here it is.

Fri nite: Met up with Cheryl Lim for dinner at maxwell market, then later went to WT's place to help him finish up his alcohol. Hrmmm... Miss Lim got hysterical, must be all the alcohol. After which, i went to zouk to meet up with Wilson & gang. Trying my best to meet up with Wilson as much as possible, as he's goin to be in sg for a short before he goes back to Melbourne. OH MY ... howwww i miss those days.. then had supper at simpang bedok

Sat nite: woke up really late. Godsis called me n asked if i wanted to have dinner at Daniel's cuz there arent any seats for us on tuesday. Nice. So i woke up, showered, made up, n godsis came to pick me up. Think im too used to ppl picking me up. This is a horrible habit. WHENNNnnn oh whennnnn will i have my own vehicle. Or rather, wheeeennnnn will i afford my vehicle. :( Dinner was excellent at Daniel's.. cept my ulcers were so humungously huge that i couldnt eat properly. Later we went to Fashion Bar at Clarke Quay to check it out. Disappointing. Absolutely disappointing. Went to Taboo later, disappointing as well. Weren't as welcomed we thought it would be. Ppl were so hostile. I mean... I have been to a gay club before (Whynot at Tanjong Pagar).. n it was heaps of fun. But ppl at Taboo are just so hostile. Quite upset abt it. While i was waiting for the unisex toilet, nt sure whether the "room" i was waiting for is a toilet, i asked this guy at the sink outside. He said YES it is a toilet. Then he started talking to me. He told me really nicely that this is a gay club, and the guys inside are all gays. And im like.. "hrmm ok.." then he suggested that i would have better chances at a straight club elsewhere and that no guys here would look at me. im like "WTF?" The freaking reason why im at a gay club is so that i wouldnt get undesirable attention. I dont wan guys to be ogling or leering at my twins n trying to get fresh with me. Being at a gay club would make me feel safe, or so i thought. I was so frightened and scared throughout my whole time there. I guess, it just felt so strange smelling semen on the stairways up to the second lvl. The whole assrape scene that Monica Bellucci suffered in Irreversible just came to my mind. BOOOOOOOOO... The night ended up with me, Godsis n XH jiejie having drinks at WT's place. HAHAA WT's place is turning into such a Ladies Night place.

Monday, December 11, 2006

Went out on friday night and came home saturday morning. YES. CRAZINESS.

Watched School for Scoundrels on the friday night after attending the Boost Juice opening in VivoCity. Yeaaaaayyy Boost Juice is here in Sg! But i never was a fervent drinker ah well. School for Scoundrels is hilarious, i nvr knew Jon Heder (of Napoleon Dynamite fame) could be cute. Sure, he has some hugeass teeth but that doesnt stop him from looking good.

After the movie, Wutien and his frd Elijah picked me up to go to Velvet together. Because i havent eaten, they accompanied me to this coffeeshop near the POSB atm opp zouk to eat. It was a quick affair, with a hugeass chicken drumstick and some curry veg. Also, the boys were starting to bore me with their financial/economic talk. PLEASE!!! There are laywomen ard, go easy on the jargon.

After which, we promptly went to Velvet. Settled down, met up with the mel U alumni members then started drinking. I went around zouk/velvet/phuture like a ktv hostess doing her rounds. HAHAHA okay BAD BAD description. Saw alvin at phuture, amy; warren & co at zouk. Went back to Velvet later, and Elijah got drunk!!! But Wutien was nowhere to be found. Honestly, i was abit pissed with him. He was nowhere to be found when his frd is drunk and cant even stand properly. What on earth could possess someone to do such a thing to a frd. Went for supper with the Mel U alumni grp, brot Elijah along cuz i had to make sure he gets sober enough to drive home.

While Elijah was waiting for his car, warren found me. HAHAHHAA and so i went home with Warren. Anyways, the Mel U alumni grp was too big with 5 ppl getting into one car? Bleah then i realised Warren & co were going supper. Ended up at simpang, i was super duper tired. Reached home around 6 or 7+ in the morning.

Woke up at 5+ or 6 in the evening on sat. Felt so lazyyyyyyyyyyyyy. OMG and so tired. then i called warren, he just woke up too HAHAHA!! hilarious. then he came to pick me up after awhile, not before i got ready n done up for ZOUKOUT!!! HAHAHA My virgin zoukout experience. it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO exciting. Felt strange having katong laksa for the first meal of the day, considering i woke up late. But the excitement made sure even if i had pancakes at 6pm it would still suffice. ;p

My overall verdict of zoukout: FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN !!! WITH ROCKING MUSIC !!! Ferry Corsten was abit disappointing tho. His set wasnt all that good. but i loved BEN SIMS !!! Was dancing lots n nonstop!!! Till i got so tired and my body aching. HAHA.

Witnessed daybreak at Sentosa, and went home with Warren & gang. Was a bitch queuing for the bus out of Siloso Beach, but oh well. We finally reached Breakfast Destination: KALLANG MACDONALDS! I was starved outta my mind. Was contemplating between sausage mcmuffin and big breakfast. But i had to go for BB. Was wayyyy too hungry. Ill post some pics when i can! :)

Im still tired and drowsy. Crap. Not because it's 12:05am but because ive been coming home in the morning. o_O

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Double pain today.

First up: I went for my bikini wax at Strip Wheelock. Was supposed to have gone one month after my first waxing trip but didnt make it in time. So when the first strip fell on me, i just couldnt help but let out a sharp yelp. :( SOooo embarassing.

Second torture: Dad asked me to drive home from orchard rd. But i only wanted to try from Handy Road (Plaza Sing area). So i drive home, all the way it was all good. Till i reached the area where there were two turning right lanes. I took the one that was on the right, misjudged n dad's wheel hit the curb. :( really i was just intimidated by the 2 huge trucks turning right on the next lane. Sigh. i felt so bad for Dad.. could feel the little tingling sensation at the chest area. It hurts.

In any case, i cant stand the hypocrisy of HEAD (High-End-Asshole-Distribution) ppl. I wish i met with more LEAD (Lower-End-Asshole-Distribution) situations. BOO.

My hair takes so bloody long to dry it's so not funny.

well, what do u know. its 2am n im still up. it's a work day tmr n im blowdrying my hair so i can go to sleep.

just came back from timbre, for sharkbait's birthday celebration. we had a major misunderstanding some time early this year. i kinda felt bad about the misunderstanding.. but oh well.. things are just the way it is. we have to move on. im over and done with in all the brouhaha...

suddenly today i thought about him. my latest crush. he's not handsome like PTT, but he's cute for my standard. and i kinda like him. Khu says he looks like KIT? but i beg to differ. he looks so different from kit.

but from the way he treats me, i think hes trouble.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

It's been a tough few months. Let's see.. the last time i blogged was in August. Now's December... too many things have happened over the past few months.

Firstly, if you remember something about a new mobile phone, it's lost and gone now. Worst, i lost it during my birthday celebration at zouk members. Never thought members would be a place to lose my phone. Sure enough, it's dented n has a few ugly scratches here and there, but it's barely one year old!!

Secondly, i've had my right eye poked 3 times. Once at the screening of Flags of Our Fathers, twice at zouk (phuture/members respectively). Too much counting going on.

Lastly, i watched Casino Royale today finally. I dont know how it all comes together, but yea i kinda decided there and then today that this year wasnt too forgiving.

This morning i had a dream. I dreamt i was in Alannah Hill factory outlet at brunswick st, and i was shopping around. I saw this rack of pretty shoes/heels going for less than $10. HOW CRAZY RIGHT.. then shortly after i woke up. I wonder what this says.. WT says if you dream about shoes means you're dumping someone. haha. Someone once told me that before too. KT had bought me 2 pairs of jewelled slippers from Metro, and someone told me it's bad luck to buy shoes for bf/gf because they will walk away from you. So... superstitious.. but somehow quite true in a sense.

I better go sleep... it's 1.30am. CRAZY.